I’m a paranoid fuck.
All the damned cheating, extramarital affairs and sugar dating has shot my nerves and that doesn’t include the stress from my career in finance. Women have asked me why I do what I do if its makes me so paranoid and the honest truth is I just can’t help myself.
During my twenties I thought it was all a phase, that after a while or maybe after a certain number of women my appetite would be relieved. And now that I am in my forties I can say that I was foolish to think it would all just go away like magic. I sincerely wish it's as easy as saying, “Poof! Be gone” because I do love my family and hurting them is the last thing I would want to do.
Note that I have yet to mention the word sex and that's because it wasn’t the sex that kept my interest it was the chase itself. I don’t mean to sound like a predator but the excitement of the chase mattered to me more than the sex. Nothing in the world compares to the adrenaline rush I get watching a woman let down her guard and letting me have my way with her. So many conquests, so many ladies that I can barely remember who is who sometimes (except of course for some select individuals :) )
What if I'm out with my wife? What do I do if I'm approached in public? I'm surprised I don't jump every time I hear a woman's voice calling out my name.