Retirement

It's interesting, but I always seem to retire from this 'business' around holidays. Last year it was July 4th. This year it's around fathers day. And this time, retirement is for good.

Like my favorite recent 'friend' said: I am becoming too jaded by all of this. Need to re-focus and re-direct. I would see HER again though...retirement or not.

After sex we were hanging out and she told me 'I can't keep doing this for much longer. I think I will get another sugar daddy. The other one I am seeing is giving me $XXXX but life is a bit more expensive than that. I know you are not an allowance person anymore....'
'That's right, I am not. But why don't you ask the other one to increase the allowance'
'I can't do that'
'Then you should dump me, and get another SD. Besides, it's always better when things end at the top of the situation'
'Why, things are just starting to get interesting. But I am serious....'
'Me too'

Just with a quick 'See you' she walked out and then I started gathering my stuff and checked out as well. Walking in the Sunday morning sunlight I was getting a bit sad. I just hate it when I get emotional about these things. It is the first rule of the SD life that 'Thou shall not get emotionally involved'. I knew she just took off because she wanted to end it. She never really asked for anything up until that day. In fact, she gave much more than she took, in so many ways that she doesn't even begin to know. And that's why I was getting depressed, just walking around with my travel bag on my shoulder and coffee in hand.
I was planning to text something but it's still in my cell phone.
Maybe one day, when our paths cross again, she will give me the opportunity to explain....

**Addendum: Walking past the Eastchester Little League field,on a Sunday afternoon, pretty empty, just some families starting to get together for a little baseball game. Still thinking of her.